Exile
Posted by Kaleidoscope on November 8, 2006
Author: Fedo Copyright © 2006
Blog: Annals of a Space Cowboy
Location: USA
I was completely oblivious to this. When I first set foot in this star-spangled realm, I never really paid much attention to the dirt on my feet. It seeped right through my heels, penetrated my skin, and found its calling in my bloodstream. Now it exudes with every arrogant breath I take. I’ve assimilated. I claim to be different, but am I really? Am I brainwashed? This is what happens when you find out that home is not where you belong; it’s just wrong.
They like me here, but not too well. They tolerate, but never accept. They see, but don’t recognize. So far, it seems like I’m an entity that is not bounded by a category or a generalization, yet I abide by the rules of dumb. Only God knows what I go through; seriously, he’s the only one. My iPod, my laptop, my bed, my wardrobe, my pen, my brain; I’m not the same. What should I do? Should I continue to stay suspended between the two? I’m jetlagged both ways, and culture-shocked every single day.
And I see home in the eyes of females. They keep me sane and in school.
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cixousianpanic said
bulls-eye!
tantalize said
Very intricate and appealing perspective of how your generation now views the US and how Americans may view Middle Easterners/Muslims. Are the females that keep you sane veiled Muslim ones? Or all females in general?
samaha said
Very familier feeling, sans the females.
Fedo said
Tantalize–
All females.
Mystique said
All females! that’s even better.
I love reading other’s reflections and inner monogloues, it gives deeper insight into human’s logic and behaviour..
” Am I brainwashed?” You did not answer this question, do you think that the way you lived in K.S.A, or what you have been taught, contributed and leaded to you asking yourself this question?
Good Writing.
Cheers