Perfect
Posted by Kaleidoscope on April 16, 2006
Written by: Ezulie (USA) Copyright © 2006
The yellow, fluorescent light bounced off her scrawny arms as she wheeled into the drive-in an hour past midnight. She was looking forward to it every since she saw the stimulating commercial on television while she was running her troubles off and away on the everlasting treadmill. She heard her mother’s voice, “Don’t gain any more pounds. You’re perfect now.” She remembered how her mother praised and admired her cousin’s lithe figure, how she gave an unconscious, smiling nod to slender young women and a critical frown to the chunkier crowd.
“Large fries? That’ll be $1.50.”
She glanced up at her rear view mirror, studying her meager, pale face before turning her head slightly to the right to examine her prominent cheekbones.
After she guiltily snagged the greasy bag, she drove back home in silence. One by one, she slowly bit and chewed the fatty fries before spitting her mouthful back in the original paper bag.
The crime was done. She headed towards her faucet and quickly washed off her salty shame before she lifted up her sweater, scrutinizing her considerably protruding ribs and concave mid-section.
She sadly smiled to herself, “I guess I’m more than perfect now, aren’t I?”
Tantalize said
Bulimia. Terrible illness. I believe it’s becoming popular amongst young Kuwaiti females and maybe even some young homosexual men.
“I guess I’m more than perfect now, aren’t I?” If anything, we are more imperfect than we have ever been. Good going Erzulie.
erzulie said
Thank you Tantalize
The disease is common with young women. I don’t see how gays are specifically cornered though; I’m sure there are old and/or straight men that go through the same illness yet again, not as much as the young women’s percentage.
Qatar Cat said
It’s pandemic. Can’t blame them, when everyone nowadays is obsessed with perfect bodies. If you’re not a minus 2 size – you’re subhuman. Blech…
AyyA said
It is a problem indeed. I have personally witnessed a case in a close family circle, and heard other friends explaining their personal struggle with Bulimia. Only one thing I felt odd in the post is that an anorexic person never thinks that she’s got a perfect body. On the contrary; she still thinks she’s fat regardless of her “protruding ribs and concave mid-section”.
erzulie said
Qatar Cat: I hear you…
Ayya: Hence the sadly smiled to herself, because it’s never enough.
jewaira said
Sad. But a very serious issue that is affecting very young teenagers as well.
erzulie said
Jewaira: Mhmm…
Brittany said
It’s wrong. But true… Sad really
“MOre than perfect”… what does that mean? Does it mean negative sizes..?
WAKE UP LADIES.. and in some cases gentlemen… Size 12 is the average woman’s jean size… it’s natural…
Learn it.
It’s a very enlightening story, keep it up!
Hadija said
I agree with Brittany. Just eat and be happy…and avoid to much fatty food…it’s not good for the health. Losing wait to be healthy is good…starving yourself…bad.
Anonymous said
i dont know but i want to have anorexia …i want to be thin sooo bad
me.. said
you dont want to have anorexia trust me.
i have it. it hurts the people around you…:( .. i want to be thin. everyone says i am..but i really cant see it.. it is very seriouse..that story touched me.. because i can associate..
i wish i could be normal. n not worry about my eating.
because im on a diet atm. im 5 foot 7 and 8 stone 5 and losing..
i know a lot of people with anorexia n bulemia ..im 14. it is a very common thing..
Rachael said
This story truly touched me. Several months ago, I read a book called “Pretty Little Liars”. In it, one of the characters had begun throwing up to lose weight. At the time, I didn’t know what Bulimia was, and I thought “That’s interesting. You know, I can’t see anything wrong with it”. Even after reading all about the consequences of Bulimia, I still wonder about doing it. When I read this story and compare my life to hers, I realize how fortunate I am. I have friends who support me and remind me not to worry about my weight, because they know I do, and they really care about me. When I think of this and the story shown here, it brings tears to my eyes, because I know there are girls in that same situation who are surrounded by peer pressure and don’t have the support that I have. My heart goes out to all of you who are affected by this horrible disorder, and know that you are in my prayers.