Human(er)
Posted by Kaleidoscope on October 28, 2005
written by: Tantalize
The 30’s have stepped in.
The slow rise of hate has cozily settled within.
This is the time of personal and subliminal collision.
Love from youth has metamorphosed into mature dislike and resentful submission.
Religion has become a fake tool of deception in the midst of personal conception.
Mediocrity has faded into xenomentality.
The compatibility for community has submitted to individual irrationality.
Having ambition has now swerved into a goalless ambiguity.
The familial government has regressed further into detached love-ability.
Selflessness has been murdered by selfishness.
Metamorphosis is now the ideal.
It is the prime faith of self-steel.
Within it, comes faith of a new ordeal.
One of hate and love, and compassion and a giving ration that knows how to self-heal.
This is fate that is humanely innate,
In all who have self-faith.
©COPYRIGHT TANTALIZE 2005
'' Judy Abbott '' said
Beautiful
so true this is exactly what i see i people around me…
hope things get better.
great poem
Erzulie said
I’m no expert, but I think this is the only piece of yours that resonates with me. I truly believe in the hierarchy of self-faith; it’s the only thing that keeps me grounded…well, that and my dear and divine mother
Kristalle said
i liked everything about it.. the way u juxtaposed every aspect & questioned them at the same time.. is it a sign of maturity to have these doubts with a twist of some resolutions when one passes 30?? as if these convictions are the ultimate answers that one has been searching for..?? or do you still feel there is chance for further progression in ones 40’s.. i wonder?
the whole poem rather resonates pessimism though.. especailly the line “Selflessness has been murdered by selfishness”.. such strong imagery of no turning back..
my personal favourite is “Within it, comes faith of a new ordeal.
One of hate and love, and compassion and a giving ration that knows how to self-heal”.. i agree that with time we’re better equipt at handling ourselves, since practice makes perfect
Kristalle said
i forgot to mention the mpst important thing of all.. the title..
absolute genius to write (er) meaning that with age one becomes more humane.. yet embedded in it is actually the verb “to err”.. that as one grows older.. his errors increase, instead of decrease.. which shoots all the conclusion the poet had come to sky high.. stressing on the fact that these so called resolutions are susceptible to change afterall..
absolute genius.. u never cease to amaze me..
Temetwir said
“Love from youth has metamorphosed into mature dislike and resentful submission.”
^ i like
TANTALIZE-PERPETUATE said
Judy Abbott: You won’t have to ‘hope’ since the hope in the poem is within hopelessness. I “hope” you understand that! ;^)
Erzulie: Hierarchical self-faith can also be internally human. When you get to YOUR 30s, you might know what I am referring to.
Kristalle: Thanks for your perceptive insight. Digression can be spiritually progressive when sought out of the linear expectations most of have been taught to believe. And without pessimism, it’s hard to be authentically optimistic. Think of it this way, being pessimistically optimistic is what is rarely explored yet a sign of individual growth (i.e. idealism). Shedding old social and conditioned habits may grant one new and self-conditioned idealism within a larger dominating entity we all call “reality.”
Yes; the (-er) stands for the maturation of being individually human as well as the departure from social brainwashing and disciplining.
Temetwir: Yeah. :^)
Thanks all for sharing your thoughts.
AyyA said
I agree with you that reaching 30 is a big turn in one’s life. The true age of maturity. The age at which one starts contemplating and reshuffling one’s cards including those of his inherited beliefs. But unfortunately, when it comes to this side of the world the conditioning is so intense that some would be terrified to undertake such change and is torn between conscience and sub-conscience. This agony may take a life time or it may change over time when one overcomes his FEARS. Mind does not accept being lead like sheep, while being a sheep is much safer, after all, we live in a closed society and it is rational to be JUST LIKE OTHERS. And here comes self-faith imbedded in actions performed in utmost secrecy.
TANTALIZE-PERPETUATE said
Ayya: I understand your views in how many here hide behind their subliminal instincts. However, that doesn’t necessitate succumbing to fear. How else are we supposed to excel and improve if diversity cannot and is not allowed to manifest? I know you agree but I am just re-emphasizing it.
It takes people like you and I to make that change and change is happening but slowly. I guarantee you Kuwait won’t be the same in the near future. There are already many signs of that in all aspects of thought and implemetation.
Badoor said
hmmm; happy birthday?
Mushmushi said
Quite a realistic depiction, even if it leaning towards the “dark side.” When an individual reaches her or his thirties, they begin to exercise their independence FIERCELY. It may not be selfishness, Tantalize; it is just knowing what you want and going for it, regardless of who agrees with you or not. And as someone recently told me, your life really begins at thirry, so why not run your life your own way?! As you say, have self-faith; it is the strongest kind.
TANTALIZE-PERPETUATE said
Badoor: It’s been a while. Yes it’s like a birthday but more of an awakening.
Mushmushi: Have you lived in the 30’s yet to know? Exercising one’s independence IS selfishness! Selfishness can be self-faith as well. Thanks for your views.
Aldara said
Beautifuly done.
TANTALIZE-PERPETUATE said
Aldara: It’s been a while. Where have you been? I miss your writing. You should consider writing a piece for this site.
harmonie22 said
My candle burns at both ends
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends -
It gives a lovely light.
Edna St. Vincent Millay
FreeLily said
loving it.. *chuckles* LOVING IT!!
‘ Mediocrity has faded into xenomentality.
The compatibility for community has submitted to individual irrationality.
Having ambition has now swerved into a goalless ambiguity.
The familial government has regressed further into detached love-ability….’ ? now ur just showing off!!
But really, your ideas.. your expression.. I could totally relate. These were like ideas that had been forming in my mind, so for you to talk of them soo, what’s the deion am looking for? knowledgeably, eloquently, BEAUTIFULLY.. I mean, REALLY whoa!!.. (how’s that for a fluent expression of favour?
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*stretches* its a beautiful friday.. sun is out (yay!!) and i’m soo chilled out today (after practically hibernating last night, I would have been worried if I felt otherwise!
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But I have to go study.. again. why? coz I am the love child of the amish and the workaholics of the world!
Nah, just.. a dreamer chasing after her dreams.. *smiles* sounds cool, huh? yeah, the ground situation aint as pretty! 
(sorta random) Its weird, finding out how much you have to learn, huh?.. not talking just about books.. just.. everything. *smiles*
ok.. really should go now. This wide-eyed child must leave to investigate the oddity that is life!
have a good one